I just wish my body would do what it’s supposed to do for once. I feel like my reproductive organs are yelling at me,
“You can’t make me! I’m not going to cooperate! F.uck you!”
I talked to my RE yesterday, and my hormone levels came back right on target, and yet I bleed. There’s no reason for the bleeding other than to piss me off. So, I started progesterone last night. I know how this will go- I’ll continue to bleed until it tapers to spotting for the rest of the 10 days of medication, and then I’ll get a “real” bleed from the progesterone. 3 weeks after this all started it will finally end, and I’ll single handedly have saved the tampon industry from collapse.
Why is it so fu.cking hard? Millions of women have regular-ish cycles, ovulate, get pregnant without the assistance of a dildo cam, enough syringes to make an addict drool, and a village of medical staff. They seamlessly move on to birth babies (after announcing their pregnancies at week 4). They don’t have ovarian failure, they don’t spontaneously abort their embryos or fetuses. They just have sex, get pregnant, and have a baby. I feel like I’m not asking for much, just what most everyone else around me has.
A few months ago I though I was doing so much better, gaining perspective, and feeling hopeful. Today, not so much.
I’m sorry your body is so f-ed up right now. This whole thing is such a roller coaster. I totally get what you mean. I can feel totally with it one week and the next week I am a screaming crying cursing mess.
I hope next week is better.
i’m sorry! i hear ya. i f-in hear ya. i was thinking how great it used to be to have periods on my own. now that that’s gone i’m thankful for progesterone pills. most people are glad they’re in the 2ww every month.
ugh
Ugh. I know what you mean. I have been bleeding almost every day since June. I seem to now be getting a week off. Few!
If only we could will our bodies function half properly.
I’m sorry honey. Was talking about something similar this afternoon. Hugs!
I’m so sorry. Hang in there. Hugs to you.
I’m so sorry…I’m right there with you, feeling like my body is never on my side. That’s why my no-heartbeat ultrasound was both a horrible shock and an unsurprising event…it’s like I just knew my body would not do what it was supposed to do. And I’m so tired of feeling like my reproductive organs are inferior to the rest of the world’s, of sitting by while we’re constantly “lapped” by couples who came together YEARS after we got married. This is a roller coaster, no doubt about it. But for every low point there is a high one to follow — I guess that’s all we can hold onto.
Yep, my body has gone Judas on me every month for years. I don’t even expect anything out of it anymore – maybe that was what my lady bits were aiming for all along?! Damn my lazy, underachieving bits….
Hang in there – do something fun for yourself this weekend. Something that you can’t do when pregnant usually makes me feel better. At least for a while….
{hugs}
I really, really, really hear ya!
Its not asking for much. But apparently, it is.
Here from LFCA and a “habitual aborter” (I dumped that asshat FS eventually, for the record).
I really hope you feel ok. and the “oh”ing gets a little more predictable.