Today at baseline monitoring I told my nurse,
“This is becoming part of my routine, and I’m pretty sure that’s not a good thing. I’m over it.”
We then proceeded to have a half hour conversation about attempting one round of IVF with a low responder protocol (like estrogen priming) with the knowledge that it would probably be converted to sexing or IUI. I have been thinking a lot about what I need in order to feel like I’ve given this my all, and I think I need to know that we grabbed all of the really expensive drugs, complicated protocols, vats of estrogen in various forms and methods of delivery, and the possibility of needle aspiration through my vagina and said,
“Yes , please.”
Unfortunately, this is a very expensive way to gain closure, especially as I’ll most likely do donor egg if this last ovarian assault is undertaken and fails (which statistics say it will), and the money might be more practically used to just go straight to donor egg. Obviously we have more thinking to do on our own and as a couple. We also need to trick a doctor into IVFing me.
My RE is on vacation. I will have a consult when he returns.
Through luck, timing, fine phone finesse, and a sympathetic scheduler I managed to score a consult next week at one of the top poor responder clinics in the US -the Emerald City of the Ovarian Short Bus. I happen to be visiting said city, and I decided this morning to see if there were any cancellations. There was one. It is now my appointment.
We will just be gathering information. I don’t know that either the Ovarian Short Bus Lovers or my clinic will agree to give me a try. I don’t know that we can afford it even if they do. But, I do know that I won’t know unless I ask.
In the mean time, I stick to the routine. I started Follist.im tonight.
Barren Is The New Black 
Wow good luck. I hope you get the answers you need and a chance to try. Not to mention a baby at the end of this.
Even if the bus is so short it becomes a smart car…I’m glad you’re climbing aboard.
Cheers to new cycles.
Best of luck. IF sucks. It’s exhausting. I really hope you get to emerald city 😉
Good luck! I found your site while looking for blogs of people going through infertility treatments like me. I’m hoping following you is ok! feel free to stop by my blog, I love people to come by!
That is a difficult decision, but it does make sense to go to whatever lengths you and Honeybee feel appropriate before deciding to move on to donor eggs, otherwise you will always wonder. I’m glad you scored an appointment at the fancy clinic next week. What perfect timing – maybe it was meant to be.
Of course, I certainly hope that this cycle works and that you don’t need IVF. That would be nice!
I’m with birds…maybe it’s some sort of sign that you were able to score an appt at this new clinic. Hoping you get some good info out of them.
and of course end up happily knocked up with a baby 😉
best of luck. maybe they’ll have a different perspective or be better able to answer your questions.